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when love becomes hatred, everything will jus goes wrong.

i regret alot of things in my 21years of life.

too much to mention. haha.

this is called regret.

what to do, we still have to accept the facts and move on.

not for the sake of them, for the sake of my kids and myself.

when yr companion doesnt unds u well more den yr fren, well the situation will jus turn haywire.

all i can say is, everything has faded. or maybe the love in the first place wasnt there at all.

well, let bygones be bygones.

jus hope my kids will b happier as days goes by.

=D

i am ok w my life even w/o him i still feel so-so, cos i noe my babies will b w mi no matter wad happened.

cheers~~~~~~~~

above pictures, i took it frm macbook -.-

its very obvious that im forcing him to take pic w mi =(

5th oct- after work, went home to rot and wait fer hazel to come fetch mi to Baby`s bday bbq.

saw joanne carina wj etc, chat awhile den cut cake go home.

jerrel been crying whole night even the next night also e same.

so im so frustrated, i woke up late no mood working.

alot of things happen larhs.jitao is depress now. i dk why also.

i so wanna play mj lorhs. tsk tsk tsk.

don think i'll be gg out this week also.

i dk wad to cook tml, recently don even feel like eating wad they cook. tsk tsk tsk

ytd mi n jy went to kovan to try their thai food, its tasted not bad. esp the soup.. haha.

and i even had mini steamboat on thurs. but i still feel kinda emo.. i dk why.

so sad larhs.

im gg to cook maggi mee later.

ohhh, anw i'll be transfering out soon. dk whr i gg also.

this is 1 fcukup thing i hate which is meeting new ppl, doing new things, bear w new stuffs. tsk tsk tsk

update next time. byeeeeeeeeeeeeee <3

-  I noe i did not update for about 1month, very lazy as usual. and my office internet very slow. and ONSUGAR cant take in BITMAP pics. don unds why

- celebrate JERREL actual birthday 24.08.10 at EXPLORER KIDS. very limited things for him to play. to our surprise his so afraid of the BALL POOLS. which i dk why also. he ended crying. we manage to coax him in n play n entertain him. very shiok cos gt leg massager thr. LOL! junyi borrow his colleauge car fetch sil shakila to downtown, ate sakura buffet for dinner.

- the rest of the PICTURES is UPLOADED in FACEBOOK, restricted photos cna be uploaded here, i dk why also. but ima so lazy to make new blog.

- bought alot alot alot of lanterns fer his first lantern taking. we bring him over to punggol park for celebration, so humid can no wind. gt getai la. but so soft the music. ended up we adults is playing he so slpy can, i went to even queue the balloon sculpting FISH which makes mi Q for 1hr lorhs. fml. go home seh seh seh seh seh~~~~~~~~~

- jerrel falls sicks AGAIN recently, and we decided to bring him to babyclinic ytd as his cough is getting frm bad to worst. so i dk wad did jy n the doc conversation,cos i ended work n reach amk ard 7+ den  i ask JY when in cab otw home .

ME: EH U GT ASK DOC WHY HE GT PHELGM N COUGHIN SO BAD?

JY: DOC SAY IS LIKE TT WAN

ME: WAD LIKE TT? IF DOC LIKE TT SAY MIGHT AS WELL DON BE DOC, U GT ASK WHY LIKE TT ANOT

JY: DOC SAY KIDS IS LIKE TT WAN

SO I FEEL LIKE ZHAM HIS SEATS COS HIS SITTING INFRONT OF ME. KAN PUA PEKCHEK. gt ask mchiam nvr ask, so i assume he nvr ask doc why like tt.

ended jerrel have to use the oxygen mask, i think nt bad la. cos he did not cough his lungs n milk out ytd night. nt bad nt bad.

and today he woke up veyr early think he noe i need to wake up early la. he trying to use his small finger n open my mouth to wake mi up. very annoying. and i don like cos very pain my mouth.

evantually , he tends to wave byebye to mi whenever i goes to work. very very contented. lols!

i went to work very early today. mum is coming in the late evening to visit his GRANDSON.. so the whining session goes in the night. zzzzzzz

sian. decided my ML on dec13.

goodluck and update to u, asap.=D

last time i use to be the one always sick,

now when i gotten married,

my new weird family take turns to fall sick, some seems so fake. LOL

don wanna elaborate also. lolss.

when they all recover, my son turns.

wad a dramatic sickness bug we got.

realli need to buy some codfish oil fer him.

tsk tsk tsk~~~

this month another bomb. all thx to the bloody tooth i hv.

Sunday is reaching,, so excited.

hope everything turns out well,

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Hi all, sneak peak of his cute cake

why this cake, cos the cow is cute, nw his zodiac is OX. LOL

anw, last sat or last last sat,

i went to emily`s daughter-jaynerbel baby shower.

the weather is so fcuking hot, mi n jer been sweat sweat sweat.

meetup w yp n ranice den went up tgt,

more n more mummies came.

cake cutting as usual. i realise my son 1st month i nvr buy cake n cut oso. jus those cake gifts. LOL

and slack awhile, i jiu rush back hm and rest. wanted to bring jer to qin 21st but its at east coast lor. so gave up this idea

took a cab str8 becos went i reach busstop jy told mi tht the bus take 1hr, and i meet candy n ting yun at 8pm, but im at the busstop at 730 =.=''

meetup w qin first, bought fries was craving.. den hopp onto candy cab and went str8 to the chalet.

overall the prawns n the hotdog is still the best la. =.=''

waited untill cake cutting over and we took cab home. mad tired la.

- duno which day, last week i think

went to taka babyfair aft i checkup

eva came to meetus awhile, cos my backache wanted to go home soon.

2sil and fil share money to buy thr 169$ pushable car fer jer. shiok ttm la him.

delivery shuld b this thurs. eva bought a uber cute mickey tops n btms.

chatted awhile and cabb home. lolsss shagg

this sunday is jer1st bday party.

hopefully its gonna be a successfully 1. i nvr ask ppl help mi do deco, might be jus mi jy n hazel if she can make it.

and so many places to rush to! omfg.

let mi recap wad i did during e weekends!

SAT
- Took leave on sat as PIL went msia
- cabbed dwn to aranda w jer to get the chalet booked.
- down to taka to meetup w esther aft tt YP w nara , regina w belle, ranice w dante n husb came.
- walked ard toy fair, jitao nth much lorhs.
- ranice parted, we decided to walk to isetan scotts cos yp wanna go see the baby fair.
- so WE meetup w joanne w her daughter levelle.
- pushed 4 prams as usual, had a very very very hard time walking, cos regina give this idea of walking underpass which require stairs w/o escalator, so i dk hw to push the pram down the stairs, so they help mi.. jitao tired daoooooo.
next, we have to PULL the PRAMS UP THE STAIRS. jitao FML CAN!
- reached SCOTTS despite all the ups n downs =.=''
- and we push the PRAMS 4levels UP W THE ESCALATOR.
- went to the so-called event HALL, SUCKS TTM!!!!!!!!
-and then, we went up to eat the fastfood joints, very good, up the lift and we HAVE TO CARRY THE FKING PRAM UP THE STAIRS. aft the so-called dinner we have do the procedure again.suck ttm.
- worst among all, wanted to push to far east and take cab home, U TURN COS GT STEPS CANNOT TAKE THE ESCALTOR, WALKED TO WHEELOCK NO CAB WAITED FER 30MINS, WALKED DWN TO ION, NO CAB AGAIN, VERY GOOD WE WALK BACK TO TAKA TAXISTAND AND WE CALL CAB. REACH HM ARD 11+ JITAO FML, NT GG TO TOWN W BB . SUCK TTM..

SUN
- went to jolyne hse, another saddening days. cos i went off ard 430, i walked damn fking far to get a cab, worst I DID NOT CARRY PRAM, WEAR THE FKING SARONG, AND JERREL IS SO FKING HEAVY!!!!!!! my bones almost crack la..
- reach esther hse ard 5+ ask yp to wait fer mi downstair.
- went up to esther hse, regina came along.
- annaleigh is super duper tiny n cute la. worst of all jerrel w his baluku, don wan say liao. later kana scolding zz
- anna is so lighter den jerrel can. zzzzzz
- order mac fer dinner, and slack till 9, esther dad send us home.
- home sweet home jitao slpppppp.

hopes tml i can get my halfday la. haiss fml man

this month another bomb liaos!

-24.07.2010-

Sat, Rush home aft work

went to meet those mummies

- Regina w annabelle, Yenping w Nara, Yawen nvr bring son 'lols- Celest w travis + maid , jiahui w tricia n hubby -

meetup w regina first, den YP celest yawen,

aftwhile jiahui came, we went to foodcourt fer lunch,

aft tht went to bring nara for her first swim,

nara is sooooo lil n cute lor, she likes enjoying.

travis give jerrel his biscuit. jerrel jitao finish lor. people dk think i nvr feed him siahs  =.=''

all loitering outside the shop. awhile joanne came w babylevelle.

so cute siahs.. jitao so many ppl.. ard evening, celest parted as she gg to visit her in-laws.

i think travis n jerrel looks alike abit. hehe. but i sooo love tricia. she so pretty n cute siahs!

i wan ask jerrel go jio her liao. LOL!

aft nara swimming, joanne came aft her lunch den we went tcc slack and jiahui go meet her parents.

slack slack slack joanne go shoppin w her hub.

left mi regina n YP.. n the stupid jet plane make my son cry.

onli NARA is immune. think she overtired. lols~

YP left at 8,

mi n regina walk in n out of PS.. the whole day stuck at PS. damn power.

went to eat prata waited fer her hub n jy, den we took train home.

jerrel slp thru-out the night, and all e babys also lorhs.

funny~

anw, next month is emily`s bb full months.. might b gg bahs.. since i gt nth to do and her bb so cute.. somemore is a girl lehs.. hais

aft tht jiu sianqin birthday den my son birthday! den tricia bday .

so many bday.. gg to broke liaos~~~~~

this month i overspent. i also dk i spent wad. hardly take cab lorhs..

anw, i jus cant be bothered w my job liao.

fml...

i wan money money money~~~~~~~~~

Went kkh , TPS ytd..

DOC say its a boy.

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SIAnnnn..

dk wad to blog also..finger pain..

wonder wad mil gonna cook tdy!!!!!!!!

hungry~